So here we are, Christmas time again.
Some of ya’ll might remember a couple years ago I posted a thread where everyone was asking me what to get me, and I had no idea because I legit didn’t want anything. (If I could buy it, I already had, if it was too expensive, I couldn’t ask someone else to buy it for me) That actually turned out ok, it was weird at first, but people eventually accepted that I really don’t want anything.
However, now’s the opposite. For once I really have no idea what to get anyone. I don’t want anything. I’ve been isolated almost all year and I use adblockers all the time, so I have no idea what people are even supposed to want now.
So mostly people are getting gift cards, but there are a couple of really close people for whom I’d like to have actual presents for them to unwrap. Picking something is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. And the delivery date window is rapidly closing (already closed from most sources).
So tonight I’m cranking a mix of Black Sabbath, country music, etc and shopping. But looking at the Amazon recommendations just turns my stomach - it’s all cheap consumer crap. There has to be a better way.
I used to love Christmas shopping. Picking the perfect thing for this person, finding something by chance that someone would like. Playing in the aisles of the stores (accidentally knocked a ceiling tile out in one while testing a super-bouncy ball that actually lived up to its name). But now I get none of that. Just anxiety. Gotta find something right before it’s too late.
I’ll get it done though. I’m just sad that it’s now an unpleasant task instead of a fun thing to look forward to. One of my friends that I always used to go do this with messaged me saying we have to do it again once the pandemic’s past, but honestly the last time or two we didn’t even buy anything. Was still fun to hang out together and play in the stores though.
How are the rest of ya’ll doing? Hope ya’ll are handling it better than me.