I have written four long posts about why and I can’t bring myself to post it.
The person I knew who would be worst affected has already died this september. I don’t want to say how or why because it would be triggering for damned near half the members of this community for one reason or another and I can’t say any of it without a trauma dump. So just… it was bad.
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And now I’ve done it again. Talked about how I could have left this country but didn’t. How I could have spent time shopping at Galleries Lafayette before it closed or
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Do I have to become the kind of person who rejoices in death and pain just to survive living here? That’s how it has been. Isn’t that prevailing thought, that those of us who don’t die fighting are as
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And where is there to go anyway now?
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What kind of idiot puts anything online that after this? The thin gossamer of protection offered by US law still was something and both the law and the government are radically different now.
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Your pain is real, but the human race is just… doomed by their poor adaptations and this is the natural consequence in the face of the climate change. I know this is reality. But like, I see why people pray… I do it all the time even knowing it is meaningless. The same way I use fragrance or anything else. As a tool to elicit a physiological and psychosomatic safeguard in my overstressed body.
Isn’t it funny to think though, how nice life could have been if we were people who wanted to understand things like that more than we wanted to kill each other?
I’m in a blue state and city, but for the past two days I have been unable to look people I encounter on the street in the eye. I feel like I’m surrounded by a plague Nazis. I feel like calling it KKKovid-24, but that seems almost humorous.
Reposting this from the “bits of good news” topic. Posters here may find some solace; California has a history of pioneering policies that are later adopted by other states, and other states should look closely at how California’s actions in countering Trump are implemented and reinforced by legislation.
“Don’t let dark moods entrance you…” — (Empty Glass) Pete Townshend
You have a choice here, my friend… a choice that no one can take away and which you have the strength to take control of. Do it. Do it for yourself, loved ones, and all here on Elsewhere.
During his last reign of terror idiocy, I had nightmares featuring convicted felon and insurrectionist Donald J. “Small Hands” Putin-Trump, and my overall level of anxiety increased quite a bit during that time.
There’s this phrase “living rent-free in one’s head.” I’ve decided that this is not going to happen. Agent Orange is hereby evicted. He is an unimportant, insignificant little rat turd of a man, and he has nothing of interest to say.
Granted, I’m still thoroughly disappointed in the gullibility, mean-spiritedness and stupidity of voters. I’ll just have to let the scar tissue grow over that one.
Overall, I’m going to do my best not to be bowed by the weight of …things. I’ll make music and play games and pet the dogs and continue being my weird, nonbinary, pagan, leftist, tree-hugging, quietly feisty self. I’ll do what I can to be kind and understanding, and for everything else there’s spite.
I just donated money to the Trevor Project, a thing which I might not have done (today) if it weren’t for The Guy Who Fell Asleep At His Own Trial.
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I’m generally feeling better today. Knee is 95% better, mental state is more functional. Today’s my spouse’s birthday and I’m disappointed on her behalf that she’s still feeling pretty bad from the cold we picked up on vacation. But, we’re dealing with things.
Not doing so good at all. I try to focus on other things, but the stream of justifications, excuse-making, and victim-blaming for the results of the election keeps encroaching. I see the corporate media, the business owners, even some establishnent Dems rushing into anticipatory obedience with the new regime.
Most Americans have no bloody idea what the country is in for. At least this place is an exception, and I appreciate your allowing me to lurk here and pipe up once in a while.
