I was probably eating best when I took a salad to work daily.
A salad that got side-eyed because it was loaded with bacon bits, ricotta, cheddar, fried onions or tortillas strips, a creamy dressing… all the “bad” things for you (but it was easily portable, no one tried to steal it, and food shopping is easier and less exhausting when you work in the grocery store).
I’m still working to overcome the automatic cringes when I look in the mirror. I eat less than most people think I do looking at me – less than the RDA for calories, most days. Some days I hardly eat at all.
But people all around me talk about how they’re dieting for this, that or the other, bragging about how much weight they’ve lost when they were twig-skinny before, and on the days I do eat, I feel guilty. I don’t have a full-on eating disorder (thankfully), but I understand how people develop them.
The diet industry is evil. Not nutrition – a good nutritionist will never nag you to lose weight or eat dangerously, but the diet, and weight-loss (and even to some extent the “fitness”) industry is straight up evil. Especially the way they’ve managed to infiltrate medicine: getting acceptance of comorbidity and correlation as being causation. Being fat causes anything, and anything wrong with you is because you are fat and don’t look after yourself. Oh, she complains of leg pains? Fat. Autopsy eventually shows she had bone cancer? How were we supposed to diagnose that, over her fat-induced pains? (Spoiler alert: the pain wasn’t from being fat). Some doctors refuse to treat fat patients, outright. We’re told obesity is an epidemic. Not the correlative issues, the obesity itself. A fat person with no other health problems is (according to the “epidemic”) as sick as a fat person with them. We have an instinctual-level fear of disease so it’s no surprise that so many people have disdain for fatness, now that we’ve patholgized it.
The whole “thin=healthy” thing needs to die in a large fire. Thin people can be sick. Fat people can be healthy. Fat people can also have eating disorders, but less likely to receive concern and help, and far more likely to be encouraged.
Fat phobia literally kills.