Journal of the Corona Year
3/30
This is long, but a lot has happened.
Today the pinch became more acute. There is more than one way for a virus to destroy lives.
Today started off like any normal day working from home. I was working on projects that were started last Friday. Emails were sent around. Everything seemed dull and normal.
Late in the morning I sent an email separately to two of the younger brokers with whom I regularly work. They had started with the company about the same time I did. I asked them how the market was looking and what they were doing. Their general opinion is that financial markets are on hold for the time being. I encouraged them to send anything small that they might need help with. We certainly have the time now. I added, somewhat humorously but also hopeful, that a small deal might save the company.
Soon after that a call came in from my manager. I asked him how he was. He sounded normal but said he had a bad morning. He then told me that they would be letting go of the temp we brought in late last year. In spite of our efforts to keep her busy for the past week, this was sad but not unexpected. This was the first step that I new would be coming eventually.
My manager finished the phone call by saying I shouldn’t worry, as there would be no more bad news coming for me that afternoon. This reassurance troubled me.
Early in the afternoon I sent a text message to my friend who works at Macy’s. Almost the entire staff coast-to-coast is being furloughed and will be brought back as needed. He works at the main store on 34th Street which has a union. The union there never achieves anything, they just add another level of complication.
As you may recall, he had been trying to find an apartment he could afford because his landlord is pushing him out. This is not going to help him.
I remember when I was hired at Macy’s in 2003. The woman leading the orientation at the time said the 34th Street store was the largest store in the world, and if the company was ever in trouble this store would the last one to close. She never imagined a future where all the stores would close simultaneously.
As I was trying to get back to working, two text messages arrived. The marketing department had been using text messages to communicate urgent alerts. The first said “I was fired!” The second said “Me too.”
I called them both in turn. Both told a similar story: they were working, they were told they were being let go and then their computers were deactivated.
Our manager organized a group call for the surviving members of marketing. Half of us were gone.
We lost four people. They were:
- The assistant manager. Hard working, dedicated, smart guy. Very easy to talk to. Often came in on Sundays to get more work done
- The email marketing specialist. She started with the company late last year and sat right behind me. I only worked with her a couple of times. She had a reputation of being a technical wiz at setting-up mass emails, which is apparently a highly confusing task.
- An events and social media specialist. The youngest and most energetic of us. We all went to her wedding last summer. She could talk to anyone with an unvarnished ease. No pretense with hope or fears. Always had a big laugh.
- The graphic designer who sat right beside me. He had started with the company a year before me and told me all about the company when I was new. He always knew what was going on before anyone else, but not this time. As you may recall, his laptop is trapped at a closed Apple Store where he took it for an upgrade to help him do work for the company. Now with his company laptop deactivated, his only connection to the outside world is with his iPhone.
I never fooled myself that I was improving the world, but it was a good place to work because I felt the company believed in everyone there. The marketing department was made up of smart, talented, dedicated people. And I was one of them. Now this just feels like a job.
Later still, I saw an Instagram post from a former coworker. Also a graphic designer. She had left the company in January to take a job in Boston to be nearer her sister. Her Instagram feed is usually filled with pictures of how she in decorating her new apartment. Apparently she had been fired by her new company too.
Through company email I wrote back to the two junior brokers I had emailed at the start of the day. I wanted to see how they were. One responded, the other did not.