Been doing a rewatch of Sense8 because it occurred to me why I like Lito so much as a character.
Spoilers under the cut.
I mean, he’s an overly dramatic, whiny, insecure guy who (at first, mostly) has it all. Even the troubles he does have seem small compared to Sun (in jail, with psychopathic brother who wants her dead), Nomi (parents can’t acknowledge her as a person, international organisation wants to lobotomise her), Wolfgang (entire psychopathic family wants him dead), Capheus (dead poor with psychopathic gangs on every side) or even Will (father dying, drug addicted, psychopathic guy who wants him and all he loves destroyed, living in his brain. Even when the “worst” happens and he starts to lose things (in quotes because) no one wants him dead.
He shouldn’t be that sympathetic. So why do I love him so much? Because in a lot of ways, Lito is me. He is the best damn portrayal of Imposter Syndrome I have ever seen on TV.
No, they don’t name it, but it’s there. The sensitivity to people criticising his work combined with his own harsh assessments of it. Nothing he does is ever good enough. He says he’s afraid of people finding out he’s gay, but he’s really afraid of them finding out that he’s a fraud. Look at his breakdowns. It doesn’t happen when he’s outed in the tabloid press. His sobbing, fall-apart breakdowns are when he’s exposed as (or believes he’s exposed as) a fake. “I am a liar. Lying’s easy, it’s what I do.” He’s not talking about acting, he’s talking about everything in his life. Again, it’s not just about him being in the closet, that’s just something he can point to and use to, yes, lie about it being a bigger problem.
So, who becomes most important to him? Those who recognise that he’s not a fraud and take the time to show him why. Hernando, who recognises and points out deeper themes in Lito’s work, and who encourages Lito even when Lito can’t see the value in what he does. Dani, who is relieved to discover that “Lito Rodriguez Movie Star” really is a fake, because the real Lito isn’t the posturing masculinity and control she’s suffered her whole life with. Who recognises that if he can fake that while actually being the quiet, sensitive person he actually is, then he’s a better actor than anyone gave him credit for.
And Wolfgang, who really doesn’t give a fuck who someone pretends to be, and really, really can’t stand people who are ultra-confident in themselves. Out of the entire cluster, Wolfgang is the one who gives Lito the least grief. Partly because he’s used to having an overly dramatic, movie obsessed person in his life. Partly because Lito managed to lie convincingly to Steiner (something Wolfgang literally could not do with a gun to his head) and partly because Wolfgang is so steeped in the worst of people that he knows that however bad of a person Lito thinks he is, he’s not, but it’s better to be a good person who thinks they’re bad , than a bad person. And because Wolfgang literally could not act to save his life, he recognises Lito’s talent as such, even when Lito can’t.
Long story short (too late!) representation matters. Just like having well written, multi-dimensional portrayals of visible minorities in our stories, the same counts for less visible minorities. It doesn’t surprise me that of all the shows, this one managed to do it. I just wonder if the writers are aware of what they really did.